Roasted Mussels with Almonds and Garlic (Page 334)
RECIPE #1103
- Date: Friday, February 12, 2010 -- 6pm
- Location: Berkeley, CA
- Kitchen: Our Temporary California Home
- Fellow Chef: Matty
- Recipe Rating: B-
The recipe is here.
I still have this project I did in Elementary School where we had to answer a bunch of questions about ourselves. One of the questions was what we wanted to do when we grew up. In the blank I wrote: I want to get a PhD from MIT. I am sure the other kids wrote that they wanted to be ballerinas, or astronauts. And I am sure our teacher read all of our answers and giggled. Between when I wrote that at age 9 and when I did start my PhD at MIT at age 22, there were plenty of points when my dream was different, or just unclear. That 9 year-old version of me wanted to go to MIT to become an electrical engineer. An 18 year-old version of me realized that I hated to build things, so engineering might not be for me! It was around that time that I decided to study math. And it was only a few months before starting at MIT that I decided (again!) that I wanted to go there. Now, looking back, it is strangely satisfying to know that I did just what I said I wanted to do when I was little.
Earlier today I had to fill out a survey for some organization that I belong to. One of the questions asked for my long term goals, plans, aspirations, and dreams. I stared at it for a long time. There are a lot of things I would have said earlier in life: find a job that I love, find a wonderful husband, buy a house someplace that I want to live, etc... or more specifically: get my PhD, get a tenure-track job, find a work-life balance that makes me happy... Those were always my long term goals. But now, I have all those things. I am living my dream and I am happy. I stared at the question for a long time, wondering if being happy with where I am in life makes me unambitious. (An ex-boyfriend called me unambitious once and I have felt a little bit sensitive about it ever since.) I do have plans. I would like to have kids someday. I would like to excel at my job. I would like to be a good wife, parent, and friend. I aspire towards all of those things. But my biggest plan is just to continue as I have been, and hope that I continue to be as happy as I am now. Somehow that didn't seem like the answer they were looking for. I left the question blank.

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